med school mumblings...

Monday, July 30, 2007

Of Manna

manna is:

1) having the sound system of the overflow convention hall break down during second service, leaving nearly a thousand people to their own devices -- and resulting in fifteen minutes of heartfelt, spontaneous worship, and

2) getting a chance to watch budak pantai perform 'live' again in conjunction with the heritage fest. what a treat it was!

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Of The Seagull

i had the privilege of watching the rsc-srt production of the seagull last sunday at the esplanade. have been wanting to put this up, but anaesthesia has taken me away from it. heh.

the 3 hour long play is by anton chekhov, set in pre-revolution russia and is essentially about two groups of people - the old and the young. the old refers mainly to Arkadina (Frances Barber), a beautiful and successful actress in her heyday who vacations in the russian countryside in the house of her brother Sorin (Ian McKellan). she misses the attention once given to her, and now makes up for it by having a string of young lovers. her current squeeze is a weak-willed but celebrated playwright, Trigorin (Gerald Kyd), who finds it a little difficult handling his status.

meanwhile, the young - Arkadina's son Konstantin (Richard Goulding) and his lover Nina (Ramola Garia), have their own wild dreams of fame and stardom. Konstantin is Arkandina's son, and he happens to be an aspiring playwright. he is extremely hurt that his mother is not supportive of his work, something his uncle Sorin tries to resolve. Nina has hopes of becoming a famous actress and shares Konstatin's aspirations by acting in his new play, to be performed to family and friends at Sorin's home.

not surprisingly, Arkadina ridicules her son publicly for his work, and Konstantin is crushed. and the longer Trigorin stays with Arkadina, the closer he and Nina seem to be. Nina looks up to Trigorin and is almost dizzy with delight at being able to be at close quarters with him. jealousy, despair and frustration tips Konstantin over, and he attempts suicide.

the third act opens as a prelude to the end. Arkadina has decided that it is best for everyone if she and Trigorin were to go to Moscow. Konstantin is still recuperating from his self-inflicted injuries, and while he knows that Arkadina's decision is probably a wise one, he instead begins to behave like a little boy and is desperate to hold on to his mother. he lies on his mother's lap for her to change his bandage, and in a moment of frenzy, clutches at her as a toddler does when he's afraid.

Arkadina fares no better herself really. Trigorin tries to get her to stay just one more day, because he can't bear to leave Nina, and Arkadina literally goes berserk. she grabs his head, arms and legs and screams, "You are mine, you are mine! This forehead is mine, these eyes are mine, this silky hair is mine. All your being is mine!" overwhelmed, Trigorin gives in and agrees to leave that day. just before he leaves though, he meets up with Nina, who shares with him her decision to go to moscow to be an actress against her parents' wishes. they then agree to meet up in the city, and steal a kiss.

two years later, the old friends gather back together again. Konstantin is now an established playwright, but Nina's path was quite the opposite. she had a child with Trigorin, which later died, and when he tired with her, he returned to Arkadina. on stage she did not fare very well, and eventually toured country towns. sadly, her parents disowned her and even employed a watchman to keep her off the estate. Konstantin tried to meet her during that time but she always refused.

Arkadina returns to Sorin's home with Trigorin, hardly unchanged. while the group has supper, Konstantin lingers in his room to write some more. Nina slips into Konstantin's room, and it's the first time they've talked in two years. it is a passionate exchange of words, and it is soon apparent that hardship has allowed Nina to realize the meaning of her life, and she says, "One must know how to bear one's cross, and one must have faith. I believe, and so do not suffer so much, and when I think of my calling I do not fear life." Konstantin on the other hand, admits to "still groping in a chaos of phantoms and dreams, not knowing whom and what end I am serving by it all." Nina leaves, and Konstantin is left to his own thoughts. he realizes the sad truth about his life, so he tears up all his manuscripts and burns them, and finally, kills himself.

having not read the play beforehand, i must say that the performance was riveting and engaging enough. the play rested so much on the hopes and dreams of all the characters, that to learn of the ending came almost like a slap in the face. while i was leaving the theatre, some people behind me were commenting on how crazy Nina was, in all her naivete, that even after what she had gone through, she could still love Trigorin. in a detached way, i agree, but Nina was the character i identified the most with. she represents all our hidden, childish desires that we reveal from time to time despite our "adulthood". it's exaggerated of course, but ironically that was the reason why i rooted for her from the start of the play. ramola garia is a brilliant actress, and she played Nina with a sensitivity that did not border on hysteria, which made that final scene between Nina and Konstantin all the more poignant and heartwrenching.

frances barber played her part well with assuredness and conviction, although she didn't make a big impression on me in the first few scenes. but she let the character build up and flesh out, into a woman so desperate to find her place in life that she is willing to put down her only son. richard goulding was appropriately emotive, for instance after Konstantin was dissed by his mother, and when he went to her to have his bandage changed.

the only "disappointment" in this play was that Sorin isn't a main character, which meant ian mckellan didn't get a chance to display his acting prowess. but to his credit, he managed to turn the minor role into a focus of humour in this rather stormy play. perhaps it's the self-assuredness that he has from being so famous (in addition to his experience of course) but i am certain he took liberties with his acting that a lesser actor probably would not have dared to make. a shake of the walking stick, a toss of his head, an "absent-minded" scratch of the leg -- all these brought a little more life to his character, so much so that each time he was on stage, no matter how briefly it was, it seemed as if that part of the stage was a wee bit brighter. and i can't forget that delightfully self-deprecating, tuneless singing in the first act!

it was a good night, though they could have probably started earlier (i heard that king lear ended almost at midnight!) so that i needn't have reached home so late!

i shall wrap up this post with my two favourite lines from the play:

1) Konstantin: how easy it is...to be a philosopher on paper, and how difficult in real life!

2) Nina: i know now, i understand at last, Konstantin, that for us, whether we write or act, it is not the honour and glory of which i have dreamt that is important, it is the strength to endure. one must know how to bear one's cross, and one must have faith. i believe, and so do not suffer so much, and when i think of my calling i do not fear life.

Friday, July 20, 2007

Of Questions

why the distance? why the silences?

what is going on?

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Of Happy and Unhappy Things

let me first get this off my chest: i dislike sly people. people who do things on the quiet and then spring unpleasant surprises on you. such sneakiness is most unwanted, and i don't appreciate it at all. neither do the others.

and, i can't understand why some people think going into the autopsy room is so exciting, and desire to handle and prod the dead person's innards. doing it because your job requires you to is one thing, but entering the room for the "fun" of it is another. it should not be treated as an excursion. there is enough indignity in the person's death, need we add to it? with the body stiff with rigor mortis and cut open, it's hard to remember that the body lying there used to be a person - a father, a daughter, a husband...or a cousin. but we shouldn't forget, simply because we wouldn't wish it ourselves.

thank God, there're more happy than unhappy things to write about.

first up, i'll be watching ian mackellan in the seagull this sunday. parents didn't want to sit through a shakepeare play (oh what love my family has for dear ol' bill) so we decided to see something with a more modern setting. it'll be a treat for sure, and i hope he'll be willing to take autographs!

second, the engine for our a capella concert just got warmed up. yep, mumbler and her jc schoolmates will be holding their very own performance in september! being in choir was probably one of the best things i've got in my life! it's such a great feeling to be able to just sit around almost anywhere in the world. heh. will post up more details up here soon.

third, little miss tiny is coming back to sunny singapore in less than forty-eight hours' time. i can't believe she' graduated, about to move on to postgraduate studies...and i still have two more years to go. summers were never so precious before we started university.

last day of forensics tomorrow. one of the doctors there is obviously very enthusiastic about his work and is so willing to teach, even slipping in an extra lecture because we asked for it. i'm heartened by his attitude, even though i'm not keen on forensics at all, and it goes to show that the best teaching is not always found in places with the most material incentives.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Of Autopsies

watched my first autopsy at the Mortuary this morning. i don't want to go into details here, but it is essentially a systematic mutilation of the human body. it was horrendous, to be frank, but knowing that there was a good reason for the slicing and sawing, i could only suppress my feelings.

so this is what you went through? that was what they did to you?

i can't imagine.

Monday, July 16, 2007

Of Write Ups and Other Stuff

am now rushing my pathology writeup because i have resolved to not sit on things anymore this academic year. developed that awful habit of waiting till one week before the deadline to start work on my write up. obviously it hasn't been a satisfactory experience so...i'll take it as far as new year resolutions go...heh.

pubmed is quite a useful tool for researching conditions, but it occasionally goes wonky. number twelve on my "LCIS and Management" search turned up this:

Dahlbo H, Koskela S, Laukka J, Myllymaa T, Jouttijarvi T, Melanen M, Tenhunen J.
Life cycle inventory analyses for five waste management options for discarded newspaper.
Waste Manag Res. 2005 Aug;23(4):291-303

hilarious.

and talking about waste, the tree at braddell has been cut down, all because silly singaporean drivers can't keep to the 40km/h speed limit. two hundred grand was spend preserving that tree, and as usual, we take the easy way out of the problem. is it so hard to take that bend at maybe 60km/h? why do we bother having all these campaigns and programs to encourage singaporeans to stop littering, recycle or support our wildlife (think glenda chong at sungei buloh talking about mudskippers) when the eventual outcome always seems to be get rid of the "offending" article? mumbler is disappointed at the turn of events, and more so that the tree was cut down one day after the announcement was made...i suspect there'll be more in the years to come.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Of Potter

we had an amazing turnout for the harry potter charity screening today. 4 theatres at suntec eng wah cinema, all filled to the brim with medics. it was quite a sight really, to see the entire faculty, including graduated students and teaching staff, hanging around eng wah. i got my ticket quite by accident really as i had planned to watch it later, but since it was for charity, i didn't mind.

which brings me to the movie. if not for the fact it was for something good, i would have mighty pissed at having to spend ten bucks on it. it was quite a let down, compared to the previous installments, and this is coming from a person who has never read the books.

-warning: a dash of spoilers ahead-

for starters, the movie was choppy. jumping from one scene to another might be acceptable for a b grade movie, but not for a franchise such as harry potter. perhaps the film makers wanted to keep the pace up, but the rather abrupt scene changes got on my nerves.

and since i've never read the book, i would have appreciated some explanation as to what the prophecy was. i watched potter and company run for their lives and fight the death eaters while trying to figure out the mystery of the prophecy. the characters didn't seem that well developed, occasionally uttering random lines that apparently alluded to their true selves in the book. more importantly, this was supposed to be the darkest movie yet, but the poor transitions from happy to sad scenes did not allow that foreboding atmosphere, so wonderfully created in the previous movie, to be felt. the producers really should consider getting back the previous writer who did a better job on the adaptation!

third, i still think voldemort looks ridiculous. he's not sinister-looking enough. that collapsed nose of his reminds me of michael jackson. he comes across like the evil witch of the east (or was it west?) instead of a representation of our darkest fears.

fourthly, the acting was mostly flat. only evanna lynch stood out with her mesmerizing portrayal of luna lovegood. (doesn't she looks like jane krakowski from ally mcbeal?) imelda staunton was an excellent choice for dolores umbridge - just the right amount of pompousness and wickedness. absolutely hilarious. heh.

-end of spoilers-

the movie could have been better i suppose (no more than 3 out of 5 stars!), but it was enjoyable enough, and it was nice to go out with my clinical group in the middle of a posting. pardon my rather lengthy sentences; reading robbins does not help me with my brevity at all.

Monday, July 09, 2007

Of Harry Potter and MSN conversations

there will be a charity screening of harry potter on wednesday evening at suntec city, in support of the medfac bursary fund. everyone's invited, not just medical students! just heard today that 30% of the students are in need of some degree of financial support, so anyone who can make it, just turn up at suntec all right? heh.

just had two consecutive msn conversations that touched my heart. mumbler is feeling blessed. thanks guys. =)

Saturday, July 07, 2007

Of ENT, Tests and Birthday Dinners

wham, bam, smash. that was how my ent ended - with a crash called the end of posting test. it was an absolute disaster, and if you look at my previous posts, i've never described any test in this way before, so you can guess how agitated we all were after the test. ah well, never mind about that now...if i were to say anymore i would probably sound like a chicken about to be slaughtered...

fortunately i had some r and r before going home. lots of it in fact. went with m.g. to suntec to get presents for some people, then walked around the place a bit before proceeding to vivocity where my cg and some others were celebrating a cg mate's birthday at modesto's. it was a very enjoyable dinner, even though i only had a pasta, because of the great company. a flaming Lamborghini and waterfall were ordered for the birthday boy. the drinks didn't have much effect on him, so someone suggested that we dare him to re-enact that famous scene from titanic with a guy. it was hilarious. wish i could post the video up online! haha.

ent was an enjoyable posting i must say. it's quite varied for our level, and the docs were all quite happy to teach us. during the two weeks we saw a whole lot of nasopharyngeal cancers and some oral cancers, one of whom underwent a mandibulectomy. had a chance to have a look during the surgery, and i must say that it was a rather amazing sight to see the surgeons saw through the mandible while another group of surgeons worked on the arm to prepare a flap. midway through the op, there was an emergency tracheostomy because some guy flew off his bike and landed on his face. he lost a couple of teeth, one of which apparently went down his left bronchus and caused one lobe to collapse. hope both patients are recovering well.

but of course ent isn't complete without the numerous otoscopic examinations of the different types of ears. for some strange reason, i seem quite bad at this, so that really got to me. let's see if i'm equally bad with my opthalmoscope when i start my eye posting in a month's time. heh. for now, it's pathology and forensics. precious time to revise for my upcoming pathology exam! whoot.

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

In Memoriam

"Now this I say, brethren, that flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom of God; nor does corruption inherit incorruption. Behold, I tell you a mystery: We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed—in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed. For this corruptible must put on incorruption, and this mortal must put on immortality. So when this corruptible has put on incorruption, and this mortal has put on immortality, then shall be brought to pass the saying that is written: 'Death is swallowed up in victory.' "
- 1 Cor 15:50-54

In memory of
GY (1974-2004)